Am I Willing to Go?? 6-12-15

(This post was written by Jill Rodrigues upon request of Rachel White of Lighthouse Baptist Church to be read at a ladies’ mtg. their church is having on Monday – June 15, 2015. The theme of the meeting is “Am I Willing to Go?”  Hence, that being why the title is such.)

Dearest Ladies at Lighthouse Baptist Church,

Hello,my name is Jill Rodrigues.  I am a mother to 11 children and I am due with number 12 in July 2015!  I got married to my dear husband – David Rodrigues- on October 4, 1997 sharing our first kiss on that special day!!   When we first married, we lived in NYC and helped start 2 different churches there.  During that time, by husband

was still working a full-time job and decided he did not want to raise his family in NYC.  So, when I was expecting our 3rd baby, we moved back to upstate NY (Elmira area) and became active members in a church in that area.  My husband taught the Young Married Couples Class for about 11 years there.  We were always heavily involved in ministry, but my husband continued to work a full-time job in the commercial print-shop industry with sometimes adding a part time job to the mix.  We always wanted to be in full-time ministry, but we were just praying for God’s timing regarding when that would happen.

Well, finally God opened a door to us to help out a printing ministry named Lighthouse 100_5828Publications.  We were excited that God finally opened up the door for my husband to print full-time for the Lord and for us to enter full-time ministry.  My husband gave up his part time job and his full-time job.  We worked with Lighthouse Publications for about a year and a half.  This was a stepping stone for us to be led to the next ministry we helped with – Gleaning for Christ Missions.
We moved to West Virginia to help out this printing ministry.  To move to WV, was a huge change for us because we had lived in the state of NY our whole lives.  We worked with Gleaning for Christ Missions for about 2 years.  Being involved in both of these printing ministries really gave my husband David even more of a knowledge of the ministry side of printing.  He was already an excellent pressman, but now he was enhanced by these 2 “stepping stones” God had placed in our path to give us an even deeper knowledge in these areas.
100_5952We then began to pray about what was the next step for us.  David felt that God was leading us to branch out and start our own Family Ministry named – Rodrigues Family Ministries.  Which involved the following:    We call them the 3 “p’s” –   Printing, Praising, & Preaching.  We purchased a 38 ft. long RV, gave up our rental home, and went on the road full-time.  We sing and play several instruments as a family and that is what the “praising” stands for.  We are raising support to eventually get a house and garage and start our own printing ministry to print Gospel tracts and Gospel Portions and that is what the “printing” stands for.  David preaches as he has opportunity to when we travel and that is what the “preaching” stands for.  The 3 P’s!!
Although we were excited to embrace and follow this new calling God had called us unto, it was not without challenges and discouragement at times.  We have peace that this is the final step to finalizing what our forever ministry will be.   We know that this was a decision we made with God’s leading.  The process to find a home suitable for our needs has been a slow one.  But, finally, we have found a house.
My greatest challenge in keeping with your theme of “Am I Willing to Go?” is this……………………....
I want to stand behind my husband and his decisions.  I enjoy and am blessed that God100_5614

has called us into full-time ministry.  BUT………….it has not been without sacrifice.  I (we) gave up everything we knew to move to a different state and then, we even gave up the home that we had in WV to give even a bit more of ourselves to God.  We have tried to witness; see souls saved; train up a godly generation (our children) for the Lord and encourage others to do the same; praise God through our song; proclaim truth on various radio stations; etc. etc.

When you are pouring your life into finding as many avenues as you can to serve the Lord, you sometimes expect that God will pour back on you the blessings of a lifetime.  But, sometimes God wants to see how much we are willing to sacrifice for His Name’s 100_5973sake.  With a new baby on the way, I became almost desperate to get into a house!  These were worries I let riddle me and cause me unrest. Where was God?  Did He care about me and our family?  It seemed the 5 years since we went into full-time ministry, there was constant sacrifices and difficulties.  Our every need was met and we never went hungry, but I wanted to see God work to satisfy my every want too!!
  Finally one night on my bed, when the rest of the family was asleep, I surrendered it all to the Lord.  Why was my heart so filled with selfishness?  Why (when others have 079sacrificed SO much more than me) was I not willing to give it all to God?  I have shed many tears and still sometimes struggle with the sacrifices we make on the road, but I know that my heart is surrendered to God’s will.  May my difficulties bring glory to an almighty God!  May HE be seen through MY weakness!  May it show others that HIS grace IS sufficient in times of weakness!   2Co 12:9 “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”  All the praise and Glory belongs to God and God alone!!
Sometimes even others judgement of us that we would cram a family that large into such small quarters, was tough on me.  I wanted others to think we were the best possible parents!  We know how hard we try to give our children the best.  But, people are entitled to their own opinion and I would get discouraged at negative remarks cast our way.  It was then that I remembered that I needed to bring my surrender even a step further.  I needed to not worry what man thought of me………….only God.  Pr 29:25 ¶ The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe.

And.........the love story continues........smile.

Now, I must say that my husband cares deeply about taking the best care of his family as possible!  In the time of waiting, I want to run my race well.  I want to look back on this time in my life and know that I did my best to rest content in God’s will for my life.   Heb 13:5 “Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.”

I trust and serve an Almighty God and the question is, “Am I Willing to Go??”  Yes, I am willing to go!!  The going may not always be easy, but to serve my Jesus is worth every sacrifice made!  I love you, Jesus!       ~Jill Rodrigues